can you see the "people"?
May. 3rd, 2013 01:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
qilorawhen i just woke up (i can't remember) i told my sister i saw my Father & Nanny (my grandmother)... but as i come around i kept quiet about seeing anyone (afraid of being considered crazy and locked up)...
at first i was TERR-I-FIED to see them, they were so vivid to me i couldn't tell they were a hallucination, so talking to them will be talking to the sky... crazy lady :(
another bit of strange was the fact that they showed up one at a time, sat or stood next to me for a minute, then walked off making room for the next person...
i *refused* to acknowledge them, & was sure to answer no one who was "alone" in my room (they could be a person or could be one of them) i could ask my sister "are they alive?", or at least talk only if i had other people around who saw them & talked to them...
i saw a woman who stood in forearm crutches, and a black man (he was the only one who waved to me, smiling), some of them looked sad but most of them peeked at me curious, some of them (thank G-d it was a very small amount) were children... almost everybody was a grown up...
i also didn't recognise any of them except for when i saw Bobby (my stepfather, who was *glowing*), and looking down into my lap i saw Amber-dog (she was wrapped in a blanket)...
when they pushed me into Rehabilitation "they" disappeared! (at first) and i was so *so* releived... thats when i noticed people, who walked in the room to visit the woman who lived in the room with me... they seemed so pleasant, dressed nice (although a little "dated") & one of them was even a dark skinned doctor, and then they would disappear on their own or be walked through..... great. i got scared AGAIN hahah ;)
i got my sister to pull the curtain around my bed so i didn't see any of "them" show up again (i felt bad i did that)...
my vision of them has gone down from the many-many-many i saw in the ICU, to just a couple in the Rehab, to hardly any at home & the hotel...
the most important fact is i'm not afraid of them anymore... they aren't here as "escort" me to the After-life, and they aren't making noise over my day to day... they are peaceful & curious, so if they want to look at me, let them look..
at first i was TERR-I-FIED to see them, they were so vivid to me i couldn't tell they were a hallucination, so talking to them will be talking to the sky... crazy lady :(
another bit of strange was the fact that they showed up one at a time, sat or stood next to me for a minute, then walked off making room for the next person...
i *refused* to acknowledge them, & was sure to answer no one who was "alone" in my room (they could be a person or could be one of them) i could ask my sister "are they alive?", or at least talk only if i had other people around who saw them & talked to them...
i saw a woman who stood in forearm crutches, and a black man (he was the only one who waved to me, smiling), some of them looked sad but most of them peeked at me curious, some of them (thank G-d it was a very small amount) were children... almost everybody was a grown up...
i also didn't recognise any of them except for when i saw Bobby (my stepfather, who was *glowing*), and looking down into my lap i saw Amber-dog (she was wrapped in a blanket)...
when they pushed me into Rehabilitation "they" disappeared! (at first) and i was so *so* releived... thats when i noticed people, who walked in the room to visit the woman who lived in the room with me... they seemed so pleasant, dressed nice (although a little "dated") & one of them was even a dark skinned doctor, and then they would disappear on their own or be walked through..... great. i got scared AGAIN hahah ;)
i got my sister to pull the curtain around my bed so i didn't see any of "them" show up again (i felt bad i did that)...
my vision of them has gone down from the many-many-many i saw in the ICU, to just a couple in the Rehab, to hardly any at home & the hotel...
the most important fact is i'm not afraid of them anymore... they aren't here as "escort" me to the After-life, and they aren't making noise over my day to day... they are peaceful & curious, so if they want to look at me, let them look..
