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dear diary: kisses from an old beau, on his way to heaven?
a very very odd set of dreams last night.... one right after the other.. usually, when i wake up to go to the bathroom, it's like rebooting my brain and cases me to start a totally new dream, just as i fall asleep, but this wasn't the case last night...
the first dream i remember an ex-boyfriend (a boy i dated back when i was 17-18ish)....we were together for a couple years, until he decided to commit to a gf that he was seeing at college (yes, this was one of my first experiences of being with a "player").... last night i remember him kissing me a bit and looking at me with a very warm look to his face.. it was as though he were trying to memorize my face.... then i had to pee.
i walk to the bathroom thinking about how odd the dream was, i hadn't really thought of him for decades.... climb back into bed, assuming that i was about to have a new dream.... guess again.
and yes, i had to tinkle 3 times that night (i'm coming up on 50, what do you expect).. and each time i fell asleep again, BAM, there he was...
nothing really "happened", there wasn't a long drawn out amounts of items/entities that i was interacting with, just a lot of sitting there while he stared at me (and i was trying to figure out why this was happening)...
the really disturbing part is that he wasn't acting like a "dream person" more like a "dead person"!... this is exactly how my beloved friends/family interact with me JUST as they die (and maybe a couple months or so after).... it had me a bit perturbed! is M. dead??
i googled his full name with the word "obituary" and clicked on the Images tab and nothing popped up that resembled him....
i have to assume that perhaps he happened to be thinking of that dorky/artsy little girl that he slept with during school breaks.
shalom! - Juju & co.
the first dream i remember an ex-boyfriend (a boy i dated back when i was 17-18ish)....we were together for a couple years, until he decided to commit to a gf that he was seeing at college (yes, this was one of my first experiences of being with a "player").... last night i remember him kissing me a bit and looking at me with a very warm look to his face.. it was as though he were trying to memorize my face.... then i had to pee.
i walk to the bathroom thinking about how odd the dream was, i hadn't really thought of him for decades.... climb back into bed, assuming that i was about to have a new dream.... guess again.
and yes, i had to tinkle 3 times that night (i'm coming up on 50, what do you expect).. and each time i fell asleep again, BAM, there he was...
nothing really "happened", there wasn't a long drawn out amounts of items/entities that i was interacting with, just a lot of sitting there while he stared at me (and i was trying to figure out why this was happening)...
the really disturbing part is that he wasn't acting like a "dream person" more like a "dead person"!... this is exactly how my beloved friends/family interact with me JUST as they die (and maybe a couple months or so after).... it had me a bit perturbed! is M. dead??
i googled his full name with the word "obituary" and clicked on the Images tab and nothing popped up that resembled him....
i have to assume that perhaps he happened to be thinking of that dorky/artsy little girl that he slept with during school breaks.
shalom! - Juju & co.